This post has been ripening in my heart for a long time now. I believe in paradigm-shifts very much. And I also believe in care-taking from above... I have had the privilege to experience both.

To start at the very start, one must consider the general mood that November found me in. Exhausted and numb (although quite cheerful, nonetheless), I was awaiting summer with a bitter taste in my mouth. Bitter. School was soon to be over removing from my days the rigid structure it had provided. The never ending conversations of "whatareyourplansfortheholidays" got me grinning aggrieved; this summer would come and go, leaving me completely invisible. Perhaps if I had denied it, pretending that it was just a very long weekend, it could go unnoticed. I would go unnoticed. And unnoticed people are not lonely, they are just... unnoticed.

Fast forward it to the end of summer and I am left with the most beautiful, meaningful and soulful memories that I have ever had the luck to file in the cabinet of my heart. Oh how much I feared the aimlessly spent days, unspoken words, feelingless times and the empty hut... but instead, the hut got filled up with beautiful shiny people, feelings overflowed my little heart, words have never been kinder to me and the content of some of my summer days would normally take much more than just 24 hours.

I believe in so much. I trust. But I never thought this could all happen to me; that one single soul can be this fortunate.

To be understood is a rare gift. It is luxury. I have known this for quite a while, so I lowered my expectations towards people.The fact of the matter is that I completely stopped expecting anything from anyone anymore. Why be disappointed when you can be content with the help of ignorance and a little bit of misantrophy. But then summer happened... 

You don't always get what you want but you certainly get what you need, especially if you have a little bit of faith. I didn't really know what I needed, let alone what I wanted, but now I'm left with a friend who has taken regular walks in my head, created pictures of my dreams and brought the light back into me. He can carry me and I don't feel the need to assert my independence. I just let him hold me together with words and much of my old spirit surfaces when he does. This is something that one can definitely live without, but it wouldn't be worth to.

So, this exists. It is possible to connect with another human being at this level. This might just be the most valuable treasure I can find in life, something that I always longed for but never ceased to doubt. But it exists.

The heartiest dimension yet. Pictures in my head that still take my breath away... Memories. How fortunate one is to be given these. How heartwarming it is to be able to feel so much gratefulness... I lack nothing.

I hope from now on, you never will either.